..not the same..

I wish that I could say everything is perfect! But sadly it's not. Cohen is great and I love him so much, he is my life and I can't imagine life without him!
But Chris not having a job has really put a strain on our relationship. We fight more than ever and I hate it! This is not at all how I pictured our family. I feel like he doesn't take me serious and that sometimes I am just a joke to him, I want us to eventually get married, I want to get sealed to Cohen and go through the temple, and I want us to get a house some day and move forward in life. Not just for me but for Cohen.
My life isn't just about me anymore it's about Cohen too and I want to make sure that he has everything he needs and more if I can provide it! I don't think that Chris feels the same :( which makes me really sad!! I appreciate that he stays home with Cohen while I am at work, but that should be me. I guess I kind of also resent him a little for not caring and not trying. I mean I know he loves Cohen but I feel like he needs to grow up and hold up his end of the deal.
Blah...on a lighter note I finished my photo blocks I've been wanting to do!! And I think they turned out really good!!:)

..Living Planet Aquarium..

Today my friend Sarah and I took our little guys to the Living Planet Aquarium. I know that Cohen isn't going to remember it haha and that it was a lot more fun for Tristan because he is older, but I had never been before and I had work of because of President's Day and wanted to do something fun!! It is a really neat place, minus the crowd (because of the holiday and no school) so I will definitley be taking Cohen there again when he is older!!

..Happy Valentines Day..

It was our 1st Valentines together and it was a ton of fun!!:) Cohen is getting so big so fast and changing so much! He is the happiest/best baby EVER!! I love him so much and I love being a mom. It is the greatest joy! I love watching him grow and learn!!:) Anyway we didn't do a whole lot, we went to lunch on Saturday and ran a few errands (Chris loved that ahha). We got some new decorations for our apartment, and Chris got me the pair of Vans I've been wanting!!! YAY! Grandpa Steve got Cohen the cutest stuffed dog and I got him the cutest little shirt!

We also went and got Cohens pictures done. They turned out really cute, even though we didn't have a whole lot to choose from because he started to get fussy, but we got some really good ones. Then we just went home and watched movies and ate some yummy junk food!! Wasn't the most exciting or romantic Valentines but it was definitely a good one!

poor lil guy..

The last week has been pretty stressful. Last Sunday I noticed t hat Cohen had a little cough, so Monday I took him into the doctor and they said that I needed to take him over to Utah Valley to get him tested for RSV. That was THE WORST experience EVER!! I had to hold his head down while the stuck tubes in his nose to suck out his little boogies and test them. Well Wednesday the test results came back and he DID have RSV:( and I have had to take him to the hospital everyday so that the can suck out the boogies so he can breathe. I have been so worried about him and it breaks my heart everytime he coughs. But my uncle came over and gave him a blessing Tuesday night and so that made me feel a lot better.